LOVE THAT I KEEP

If I can write, I can sing this song,
For the greatest love I’ve ever wanted along.
To my heart, you have the only key,
I beg of you, never set me free.

Try to look into my heart and life,
Tell me, what do you see?
Can you feel the desire,
As I to be yours, and you to be mine.

Most joy and happiness you've brought me.
If I had chances to live again,
I'd still want to be with you,
My lover, my best friend.
Always and Forever, I'll love you till the end.

You'll stay and play your part,
But after the beauty starts to die,
Will your footprints still be on my heart?
Though it would be hard to say goodbye,
Your friend I'll always be,
As long as we always try,
To keep our friendship, our relationship.

***

Someday I want to see,
Though that day might not come.
You'll say you love me,
But will you ever forget?

If that really happens and my spirit dies,
If my emotions fall,
Will you hold me, hug me when I cry?
Or will the love just suddenly stop?
We can't expect to fall in love and never cry.

***

This letter will not be sent
Will personally inquire,
How could you have brought it to an end?
You was my one desire,
And you knew, for sure.
After this life is over,
You'll be the only person I know I'll truly miss.

It'll be too late to start over, and so I leave you with this...
I wish I could hold you for a lifetime,
But it’s your decision to make to hold my hand.
We could have a nice and wonderful time,
In the coming days and years we have not yet planned.

***

Be true, your shadow, your images, always I see,
Whenever I put myself to sleep.
Dreams of you, always be so sweet,
Deep in my heart, I will keep.

- = END = -

Mood : Empty...
Thoughts: Overloaded...

DAMN!! I Feel So Shitty...

There are things that called:
- Stress
- Pressure
- Headache
- Illness
- Worries
- Roadblocks(as in your thoughts)

In our daily life... But who can avoid those stupid things? It's only what we think! What for to have one of those?

DAMN! I'm the one who say, not to have those stuff, in fact, I'm ONE of them in the world.
Well, what had happened on me? I'm still figuring out...
Thoughts like :
Why things go that way but not this way?
- Who knows it(or those things) goes different directions. Idiot!

Why things have to be like this but not what I've expected?
- If everything always in your expectations, then, there are no clue to be you world anymore. You could probably be "God" already. Idiot!

Why things that I think, would be like this, but end up like that?
- Of course, the world keep changing, and you keep breathing and as in game, even a goal can't really tell that you sure win the game or whatever the situation is. Idiot!

Why things that impossibly I can do, I want to act like I can?
- It's all pointed at your own attitudes, always be so ambitious, so proud of yourself, thick face, act pro and Bull-shitting. You should be ashamed of yourself. Idiot!

Why things that can't be achieved, and I still day-dreaming about that?
- Because, you're always like that! You never change, and you keep acting to be someone/thing else! Your attitudes are still the same, just that your thoughts(maybe some of your thoughts) slightly different from last time you in this situation! Fatt, Wake Up! Damn you! Idiot!

Why I can keep helping people something but can't help myself?
- Because you want people to know that you're helpful! BUT you MUST realize that, every time you do, you OVERDO it! OVER-REACT it! Slap yourself, idiot!

These encountered me, and I realized that I really do so since ages ago, but thing is, I just can't change, I have no idea why... HOPE I can CONTROL myself... *Punch to the nose* Okay, I MUST CONTROL myself... *nose bleeding*


I'm TOTALLY LOST, only to find myself, the TRUE me...
There are persons beneath my mask...

Evil inside me...
Good inside me...
Pure-person inside me...
Idiot inside me...

Which one is the REAL me now... I've no idea which one to choose to be!!!
DAMN!!!!!!!DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELL YA, DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

White Dove

by SCORPIONS

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A place without a name under a burning sky.
There’s no milk and honey here.
In the land of God.

Someone holds a sign,
it says we are human, too.
And while the sun goes down, the world goes by.

White dove fly with the wind.
Take our hope under your wings.
For the world to know that hope will not die,
where the children cry

Waves, big like a house.
They’re stranded on a piece of wood.
To leave it all behind, to start again.

But instead of a new life,
all they find is a door that’s closed.
And they keep looking for a place called hope.

Can anyone tell me why the children of the world have to pay the price?

And now your telling me you’ve seen it all before.
I know that’s right but still it breaks my heart

Well, the golden lamb we sent makes us feel better now.
But you know it’s just a drop in a sea of tears. "

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Wow, this song makes me feel bad...
It' a nice song! LOVE IT!

For You To Know

There`s a strange feeling
Hidden inside my heart
There`s definitely a weird thing
Stored up deep inside my heart

I crave for love
No matter how hard
I long eagerly for love
Even though it hurts

I`ll wait for you though
It takes me so many nights
I`ll save my last breath until
The sun refuse to shine its light

I want you to know
I need you to know
For you I will show that
YOU'RE THE ONE, I CAN'T LET GO!.

-= All I Feel About You =-

It was not so long ago,
When I first lay my eyes on someone like you.
I tried to deny this feeling in me,
Oh, I had fallen in love with you.

I love you more than words can say,
But, “You shouldn’t love me”, you said.
Yet, I don’t believe this is true,
Maybe your heart never tells the truth.

I tried my best to feel your emotions,
As if they are mine.
To connect, understand and accept
In a way I can’t even explain.

Your accent, your smile,
Even I’m millions miles away,
They always comfort my heart.
Also, brighten up my everyday.

How I wish the time could ever freeze,
To have this special feeling, every moment…

GAY

Woww it takes me AGES to learn the word and the world of these three letters, G-A-Y...

For early days, it's another word for happy, or carefree, and we can use that anytime at any place too.

But for now, at certain places, becareful with people around you, check before you say it...

Because, Gay = same-sex relationship, is a contemporary culture, which you might not notice(if you do, congrats), existing in our life, our world... It's not only Gay, Lesbian and transexuals exist too!

There's no word calls LIMIT in your choice of relationships. It's about acceptance love, and feel! Or maybe, rejection...

Go for it, if you really like... No one gonna stop you anyway, except, you yourself stop you!

I've been learned to accept this culture, since last year...

It's just a pair of loving couple, and only both are same-sex!! They are as happy as we're in our relationship!

There's nothing much for me to bias or to feel irri about... Sorry, I was wrong in the pass few year, since then i stasrted to know and learn the word, W-O-R-L-D!

Being in this multi-culture world, we have to accept whatever we see, we feel, and we experience... It's a fact, not only for you, it's for everyone!!

Love appears everywhere...

Do u know what LOVE means?

Love is a promise, but it goes empty.
Love is about faith, a lie it turns out to be.
Love is a hope, only to pin in vain.
Love has no reasons, for it has ambiguity.
Love is reality, there’s no escape.
Love is not a game, that comes with pain.
Love has a bad name, it puts me to shame.
Love is not perfect, and it never will be.
Love has got memories, forever living in misery.
Love is like a life, it just dies ..

perhaps..

When you've been through so much, you'll come to realize maybe
things are not the way you expected.
I've learned from my journey of my life, so far...

Love can be a many splendid thing, can't deny the joy it brings.
You'll never know me enough ..

:: Life is way too short for people to have regrets all the time. ::

IF THERE'S SOMEONE THAT CAN GO ...

THRU' UPS & DOWNS WITH ME...

I WILL NEVER GIVE UP TO LOVE HER FOREVER... :)

I was thinking...

Sometimes I,
Wonder if one day I lost my sight,
And life is like the stringless kite in the sky,
Directionless ahead I will fly...

Although without my sight,
Still I have to move on and fight,
There’s nothing for me to cry,
Face the storm ahead, and why don't I try...