The Way I Live On

Anyone looking for CAMERA? COMPUTER? LAPTOP? EXTERNAL HDD? WACOM?

2009-10-01T08:06:00.000-07:00

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DSLR or Compact Cameras
NIKON (D90/D5000/D3000/other higher models*)
CANON (450D/500D/1000D/other higher models*)
SONY (Any new models*)

Computers & Accessories
CPU/Full PC *Custom build-up (Intel / AMD)
External Hard Disk Drive (Buffalo / Seagate / HP / Imation)

Laptops (size : 10" 11" 13" 14" 15")
ASUS (10" / 14" / 15")
TOSHIBA (10" / 13" / 14")

WACOM
Intous3
Intous4
Bamboo Pen / Touch / Pen&Touch
Bamboo Fun

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Somehow, anyone of you would like to know more about the price...

Please contact me via:
Email: cchuat0324@yahoo.com
MSN: cchuat0324_aka_eminem@hotmail.com
Facebook : cchuat0324_aka_eminem@yahoo.com

Well, if you're agree to buy from me,
you may collect your items from my place in SUNWAY.

**NO delivery and postage services provided...**

Oh shit, it happened again!!!

2009-06-03T07:45:00.000-07:00

oh my, things happened to be repeated over and over again...

Attitude... Personality... Ok, this happens to be everyone's great challenge, am i right?

Damn the attitude, get me prostitute!! grah!!! well, i dont think i will take the prostitute... ^^

I'm evil, yet holy... HOLY evil that's me, i suppose and believe...

Sometimes you think you're doing the right thing, somehow it's not...
Sometimes you suppose you're making the right choice, somehow it's not...
Sometimes you feel your plan is good to go, somehow it's not...
Sometimes you believe that you're right, somehow it's not...
Sometimes you got yourself a plan tat good to go, somehow it's not...
Sometimes you trust that you always heading the correct way, somehow it's not...

Sometimes, somehow it's not... that's wat happen all the time...

D'oh! Please correct me if i'm wrong...

I'm so random questioning myself!

2009-04-26T14:32:00.000-07:00

I'm asking myself, deep deep deep inside...

Q: Am i that semangat to do my self-practice?
A: Hopefully ya, anyway, I'm going back on 2moro evening....

Situ.: Haiz... How? Izzit okay, if I left my iMac alone in Sunway? Worried sia! Or should i bring back?
Solu.: Just leave it here... I'll be back in 6 days time anyway. 28th evening back sp, 4th back in SP. Just hope nothing will happen here...

Q: Am i still that old me?
A: I wonder, am i? No? Yes? Yeah? Nope? Nah? Ya? Sure? Erm?

Q: What am i wanna be? Professional Designer? Basketball player? Beggar?
A: Still no idea, seriously answered!

WTH... silly questions all the way till here?! c'mon, I know the day still young, Try to make it as happening as possible! Now, take my time to rest, clear up my mind! This may help...

DSLR camera, D80? D90? which one? crazy headache here!!!!

WELL, what should i do now, is SLEEP to REST...

Nitez... Zzzz....

Emptiness

2009-04-22T23:08:00.001-07:00

Damn...

Oh, it's already semester break? How come I feel like super empty one? I've tried to fill my days as in sleeping(resting), surfing the web, go for sports, daydreaming, future planning, and bullshitting with friends... Seriously, I dun feel like I'm a student, but a junk kid. WTF!!!

Said want to start my character design for DW4... Fug, where is it?
Said want to start polishing my ass on CS3 and learn CS4... WTH, have I?
Said want to make your own 2009 calendar, since last year.... Well, seems like I never do what I said to do!

2nd term ended last week.

Thoughts of 2nd term:

Learning is to understand the ideas, concepts and subjects.
Scoring better marks is to show my parents I did well in class.
Believing in friends and myself is to show your faith to the people you always trust.
Arguing is to let people that your thoughts and uneasiness of certain things.
Helping is to assist those who really need helps.
Loving is to show your care to someone that important.
Knowing your opponents is to help yourself to build better outcome and fix your weakness.
Understanding yourself is to know how you're doing all day long...
Bullshitting is to spend your time and clear your stressing mind.

WELL WELL, life really moves on, no matter if it's fun, interesting, boring, stressful or empty.
Planning your plot of life, is your own job, because you're the most respectful director of your own show.

Don't let others control yours.

oh, 'she' is the cause...

2009-03-20T12:36:00.000-07:00

is it BOLT?

Somehow....

2009-02-08T09:37:00.000-08:00

I'm getting sucker and sucker and sucker and sucker, since the term started... damn, that is a REAL DAMN thing i've ever face. EMPTY MINDED me, dunno what's happening to myself yet...

I din play a lot but time not enough
I din eat a lot but tummy get bigger
I din sleep a lot but works cant be done in time
I din believe in bad luck but it keeps happening
I din stop looking for references but I just cant get my works started

I do want to start my work every time I come back from class but I just cant, I wonder y...
I do want to save money every month but it seems to be a hard thing to maintain the spirit, I wonder y...
I do want to find my inspirations and ideas back but it seems keep running away from me, I wonder y...
I do reminding myself to do everything as planned but plans keep changing while time comes, I wonder y...
I do want to stop my extremely-talkative attitude but it's not as easy as I want to, I wonder y...

FORGETTING MYSELF seems to be the best thing to start over my life...

as TIME BEING, let it be...

Kill awesomeness
Kill amazingness
Kill perfectness
Kill goodness
Kill greatfulness
Kill richness

note: this achieve is posted to exclaim myself as a lost person as for now. The day after, I will be referring this to remind myself and make myself a better one, and hope that works.

2009, KEEP MOVING

2008-12-31T12:10:00.000-08:00

2008 jz passed by, and the new year, 09' is here!

Actually, we should start planning our goals. If you rather wait for what will happen later, that's the stupidest choice you have ever picked, to be a human. Human without an aim or target or let's say objective or goal of life, is mostly those we choose to enjoy first then yelling for help when disaster happens to be killing them.

These are how it goes:

- Planning

- Preparation

- Objectives

- Trials

- Enhancements

- Achievement

- Gains

PLANNING what we want to do throughout 2009. Every day, every week, or maybe every month. Jot down and try to work it or them out!

PREPARATION is the thing that we must have, efforts, informations, your wills, and psychological strengths. If you do nothing but start something right the way, you most probably got yourself hard. This plays important roles at all time!

OBJECTIVES are the goals and aims or targets to set and achieve, once we set, we have to try to achieve! If not, what we set those for? Think properly, when you set. Those can help to improve your levels, standards and qualities. So, good luck!

TRIALS are test yourself if something that you do is workable or achievable. And do not stop trying something new. 'Cause there are many things worth for us to try!

ENHANCEMENTS are improvements that we can do on our works and projects. Projects? Things that you do every time, are projects that you handle, no matter how. Projects have to be completed once you started them. DO NOT ANCHOR YOURSELF during the progress, KEEP MOVING!

ACHIEVEMENT, is when you get goal! DO NOT JUDGE on GRADES! JUDGE on YOURSELF!

GAINS, what you've learnt and experienced during the progresses. DO NOT TAKE FAILURE as DEAD END, there're many ways to FIX it!

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We all have to keep moving.

Even we are slow, it's ok, keep moving.

If you say you are weak, still, you need to keep moving.

Because time won't wait for us, so, KEEP MOVING!

Well, you are your life's director!

Make the best movie for your own!

DESIGNAHOLIC!!

2008-11-12T06:53:00.000-08:00

In the design world...

What we do are creating ILLUSION which makes YOU think it's REAL...

Those things which are REAL, we conceptually make them into ILLUSION...

Creating VISUALS that make people FEEL, THINK and ACT differently.

That is what we do as a DESIGNER.

IMAGINATION is one of the BASIC things to have in a designer's MIND.

INSPIRATION is what a designer NEED.

REFERENCE is what a designer REFER TO.

PASSION is what a designer DO WITH.

EFFORT is what a designer have to PUT IN.

CREDIT is what a designer will GET and GIVE.

RECOGNITION is what designers WANT all the time.

Everyone can be DESIGNER, it's not only those who study designs can be.

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Bear in mind,
IT'S NOT HOW GOOD YOU ARE, IT'S HOW GOOD YOU WANT TO BE!

NO ONE CAN STOP YOU TO BE WHAT YOU WANT!

^^
Keep moving...
Don't STOP while the time NEVER WAIT...

P/s: KEEP FIGHTING TILL YOUR LAST BREATHE!

: Message to GUYS and GALS :

2008-09-14T02:05:00.000-07:00

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a guy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
(why? under 1 roof? whoa! nice, take back your shirt after that, ya!)

• leave her cute text notes.
(apparently just flirting! make her happy! Waste of papers! Save the TREES!)

• kiss her in front of your friends.
(gal : "don't do so, i'm shy..." guy : "get it or you'll never get a second one, even you ask for!" ^^ )

• tell her she looks beautiful.
(How many times do guys have to say? Every time meet up? Gals, you know more than guys do...)

• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
(Guys, you have to! coz you're talking to her! Gals, just try to attract his eyes! that will do! LOL~)

• let her mess with your hair.
(wtf! guys will hair gelled, how? have to go washroom to set up again?)

• touch her hair.
(some gals : "i don't like ppl touching my hair, so dont! I'll hate you!")

• just walk around with her.
(guys, don't you have work to do? time is precious!)

• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES.
(MISTAKES? Not every time though! You gals need to learn!)

• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
(pathetic! unless, gals, you way too attractive!)

• tickle her even when she says stop.
(this will get bitch slap when it's too much)

• hold her hand when before she does so.
(damn, why guys always have to do first? Gentlemen say : Ladies first!)

• be the one to call her, don't make her always call you.
(according to research, guy call most of the time instead.)

• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
(shut up! get married then!)

• let her fall asleep in your arms.
(fair enough)

• get her mad, then kiss her.
(get her mad? there is no turning back, don't mess with gals' madness!)

• tease her and let her tease you back.
(rather not, that's child's play!)

• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
(how many of you gals have done this before in reverse?)

• watch her favorite movie with her.
(no problem, but, how about your own favorite movies, guys? you have to watch your own then?)

• kiss her forehead.
(love you forever? damn, just if she really wants to! Well, gals do like a kiss on the forehead, but lips more!)

• give her the world.
(c'mon, gals, you have your own world! guys know gals will ask for freedom when comes to a relationship.)

• write her letters.
(guys, anyone? plus pigeons delivery that will be perfect!)

• let her wear your clothes.
(Any reason? why do guys need to do so?)

• when she's sad, hang out with her.
(no problem, but, till when? Btw, sadness has tons of reasons though...)

• let her know she's important.
(like how, gals never had enough!)

LOVE THAT I KEEP

2008-06-22T02:17:00.000-07:00

If I can write, I can sing this song,
For the greatest love I’ve ever wanted along.
To my heart, you have the only key,
I beg of you, never set me free.

Try to look into my heart and life,
Tell me, what do you see?
Can you feel the desire,
As I to be yours, and you to be mine.

Most joy and happiness you've brought me.
If I had chances to live again,
I'd still want to be with you,
My lover, my best friend.
Always and Forever, I'll love you till the end.

You'll stay and play your part,
But after the beauty starts to die,
Will your footprints still be on my heart?
Though it would be hard to say goodbye,
Your friend I'll always be,
As long as we always try,
To keep our friendship, our relationship.

***

Someday I want to see,
Though that day might not come.
You'll say you love me,
But will you ever forget?

If that really happens and my spirit dies,
If my emotions fall,
Will you hold me, hug me when I cry?
Or will the love just suddenly stop?
We can't expect to fall in love and never cry.

***

This letter will not be sent
Will personally inquire,
How could you have brought it to an end?
You was my one desire,
And you knew, for sure.
After this life is over,
You'll be the only person I know I'll truly miss.

It'll be too late to start over, and so I leave you with this...
I wish I could hold you for a lifetime,
But it’s your decision to make to hold my hand.
We could have a nice and wonderful time,
In the coming days and years we have not yet planned.

***

Be true, your shadow, your images, always I see,
Whenever I put myself to sleep.
Dreams of you, always be so sweet,
Deep in my heart, I will keep.

- = END = -

Mood : Empty...
Thoughts: Overloaded...

DAMN!! I Feel So Shitty...

2008-06-18T13:16:00.000-07:00

There are things that called:
- Stress
- Pressure
- Headache
- Illness
- Worries
- Roadblocks(as in your thoughts)

In our daily life... But who can avoid those stupid things? It's only what we think! What for to have one of those?

DAMN! I'm the one who say, not to have those stuff, in fact, I'm ONE of them in the world.
Well, what had happened on me? I'm still figuring out...
Thoughts like :
Why things go that way but not this way?
- Who knows it(or those things) goes different directions. Idiot!

Why things have to be like this but not what I've expected?
- If everything always in your expectations, then, there are no clue to be you world anymore. You could probably be "God" already. Idiot!

Why things that I think, would be like this, but end up like that?
- Of course, the world keep changing, and you keep breathing and as in game, even a goal can't really tell that you sure win the game or whatever the situation is. Idiot!

Why things that impossibly I can do, I want to act like I can?
- It's all pointed at your own attitudes, always be so ambitious, so proud of yourself, thick face, act pro and Bull-shitting. You should be ashamed of yourself. Idiot!

Why things that can't be achieved, and I still day-dreaming about that?
- Because, you're always like that! You never change, and you keep acting to be someone/thing else! Your attitudes are still the same, just that your thoughts(maybe some of your thoughts) slightly different from last time you in this situation! Fatt, Wake Up! Damn you! Idiot!

Why I can keep helping people something but can't help myself?
- Because you want people to know that you're helpful! BUT you MUST realize that, every time you do, you OVERDO it! OVER-REACT it! Slap yourself, idiot!

These encountered me, and I realized that I really do so since ages ago, but thing is, I just can't change, I have no idea why... HOPE I can CONTROL myself... *Punch to the nose* Okay, I MUST CONTROL myself... *nose bleeding*

I'm TOTALLY LOST, only to find myself, the TRUE me...
There are persons beneath my mask...

Evil inside me...
Good inside me...
Pure-person inside me...
Idiot inside me...

Which one is the REAL me now... I've no idea which one to choose to be!!!
DAMN!!!!!!!DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELL YA, DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

White Dove

2008-06-16T10:52:00.000-07:00

by SCORPIONS

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A place without a name under a burning sky.
There’s no milk and honey here.
In the land of God.

Someone holds a sign,
it says we are human, too.
And while the sun goes down, the world goes by.

White dove fly with the wind.
Take our hope under your wings.
For the world to know that hope will not die,
where the children cry

Waves, big like a house.
They’re stranded on a piece of wood.
To leave it all behind, to start again.

But instead of a new life,
all they find is a door that’s closed.
And they keep looking for a place called hope.

Can anyone tell me why the children of the world have to pay the price?

And now your telling me you’ve seen it all before.
I know that’s right but still it breaks my heart

Well, the golden lamb we sent makes us feel better now.
But you know it’s just a drop in a sea of tears. "

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Wow, this song makes me feel bad...
It' a nice song! LOVE IT!

For You To Know

2008-06-13T13:24:00.000-07:00

There`s a strange feeling
Hidden inside my heart
There`s definitely a weird thing
Stored up deep inside my heart

I crave for love
No matter how hard
I long eagerly for love
Even though it hurts

I`ll wait for you though
It takes me so many nights
I`ll save my last breath until
The sun refuse to shine its light

I want you to know
I need you to know
For you I will show that
YOU'RE THE ONE, I CAN'T LET GO!.

-= All I Feel About You =-

2008-06-13T13:23:00.000-07:00

It was not so long ago,
When I first lay my eyes on someone like you.
I tried to deny this feeling in me,
Oh, I had fallen in love with you.

I love you more than words can say,
But, “You shouldn’t love me”, you said.
Yet, I don’t believe this is true,
Maybe your heart never tells the truth.

I tried my best to feel your emotions,
As if they are mine.
To connect, understand and accept
In a way I can’t even explain.

Your accent, your smile,
Even I’m millions miles away,
They always comfort my heart.
Also, brighten up my everyday.

How I wish the time could ever freeze,
To have this special feeling, every moment…

GAY

2008-06-11T05:29:00.000-07:00

Woww it takes me AGES to learn the word and the world of these three letters, G-A-Y...

For early days, it's another word for happy, or carefree, and we can use that anytime at any place too.

But for now, at certain places, becareful with people around you, check before you say it...

Because, Gay = same-sex relationship, is a contemporary culture, which you might not notice(if you do, congrats), existing in our life, our world... It's not only Gay, Lesbian and transexuals exist too!

There's no word calls LIMIT in your choice of relationships. It's about acceptance love, and feel! Or maybe, rejection...

Go for it, if you really like... No one gonna stop you anyway, except, you yourself stop you!

I've been learned to accept this culture, since last year...

It's just a pair of loving couple, and only both are same-sex!! They are as happy as we're in our relationship!

There's nothing much for me to bias or to feel irri about... Sorry, I was wrong in the pass few year, since then i stasrted to know and learn the word, W-O-R-L-D!

Being in this multi-culture world, we have to accept whatever we see, we feel, and we experience... It's a fact, not only for you, it's for everyone!!

Love appears everywhere...

2008-06-11T05:25:00.000-07:00

Do u know what LOVE means?

Love is a promise, but it goes empty.
Love is about faith, a lie it turns out to be.
Love is a hope, only to pin in vain.
Love has no reasons, for it has ambiguity.
Love is reality, there’s no escape.
Love is not a game, that comes with pain.
Love has a bad name, it puts me to shame.
Love is not perfect, and it never will be.
Love has got memories, forever living in misery.
Love is like a life, it just dies ..

perhaps..

When you've been through so much, you'll come to realize maybe
things are not the way you expected.
I've learned from my journey of my life, so far...

Love can be a many splendid thing, can't deny the joy it brings.
You'll never know me enough ..

:: Life is way too short for people to have regrets all the time. ::

IF THERE'S SOMEONE THAT CAN GO ...

THRU' UPS & DOWNS WITH ME...

I WILL NEVER GIVE UP TO LOVE HER FOREVER... :)

I was thinking...

2008-06-11T05:19:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I,
Wonder if one day I lost my sight,
And life is like the stringless kite in the sky,
Directionless ahead I will fly...

Although without my sight,
Still I have to move on and fight,
There’s nothing for me to cry,
Face the storm ahead, and why don't I try...